Just Fine

To start off, their is a need, an anxiety to write down my frustration and sadness. And for a person that enjoys to write, this is perfection. Their are days that everything seems so completley complete. Nothing missing. For the past week i have felt sad and lonely. Of course relationship problems. I do not really know how to express what is going on, but I do know that this will help let it out. I personally do not like to tell my life to those I am close to. I find it to be a waste of time because everthing always gets better. And everything gets worse before it gets amazing. I have always thought that, from many life experiences. Well this guy I am completley in love with is a jerk. In a good way. Today he told me how it is, the reasons we fight, he has been straight up. I am apparentley a sensitive person, and that i take everything offensively. But what girl would not? Woman are sensitive and any guy who does not realize it, is being completely out of line. But it is okay to be hard sometimes. Like he said, "the truth hurts", and yes. We are seeing eachother too much. I have thought for a while, the same thing. And god knows I have. He told me that this morning, along with other things he expects me not to get hurt about. For a hint, I will be going to the gym in a little bit, and yes i need it. Being with him for a year, i think i have gained 20-30 pounds. I need to feel attractive again. Because I do not, and it is okay because I have it easy in life. I have realized today that I do, and soon to come in my posts soon to come, you yourself will realized that I have an Easy life.